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Joy

Tuesday, February 9th, 2010

I have been lis­ten­ing to Ikon: Music for the Soul and Spirit (Harry Christo­phers & The Six­teen) a lot recently. When I’m writ­ing fic­tion, I like to lis­ten to instru­men­tal music — prefer­ably with a lot of white noise — such as Mog­wai (and I have to con­fess here, that like drink­ing High­land Park, this is inspired by Ian Rankin’s habits — but a lit­tle bit of mind­less hero-mirroring never did any­one any harm. It’s not like I go around try­ing to grow beards, eat dog­food or make wasp fac­to­ries or you know, act mostly harm­lessly, or any­thing. (‘Mostly harm­lessly’? Seri­ously, Ivan, sort your –lys out.).

The white noise ele­ment — loud, shape­less or dis­torted gui­tars — helps to empty my head of other imagery so that I can focus on the scene in hand. It’s one less dis­trac­tion in the process. If I could, I would prob­a­bly write in the dark. Although being unpub­lished, I can­not afford the spe­cial ‘see in the dark’ eye trans­plants that I hear all the top authors are get­ting nowa­days. I’ve also just realised that I  tend to chew a lot (gum, I know, dis­gust­ing habit, but it’s health­ier than bis­cuits) when I’m writing.

Together, these sen­sory deprivations/restritions all add to the blank can­vas for me — the act of lis­ten­ing to the same thing, chew­ing the same taste etc all helps to cre­ate the envi­ron­ment for me to focus on cre­at­ing new sights, sounds, tastes, smells…

Occa­sion­ally, I break my own rules with music with vocals in other lan­guages — the only rule is that it can’t have eas­ily iden­ti­fi­able Eng­lish words in them — in case I type them by mis­take. So I also lis­ten to a lot of Scan­di­na­vian music, like Sigur Ros. I also tried branch­ing out with The Necks, remem­ber­ing a rec­om­men­da­tion from some­one whose opin­ion I value, but it took too long to arrive (as noise), and dis­torted the writ­ing flow.  I some­times won­der if you can tell what I was lis­ten­ing to when I wrote a par­tic­u­lar piece. I think you can, but then I think a lot of things about my writ­ing that aren’t obvi­ous to other read­ers. In my head, most of what I write is full of many coloured threads, whereas most read­ers just see black. And matt black, at that. C’est la vie… c’est la nuit.

Je digress.

Where was I? Oh yes, ‘joy’. When I’m doing my free­lance work (which tends to require a pedan­tic, ana­lytic mind­set, rather than what I feel is ‘cre­ativ­ity’ (oth­ers may dis­agree))  I tend to lis­ten to clas­si­cal music — or opera if I’m feel­ing very Morse-like (he is the Uber Pedant, at whose feet we proto-grumpies all wor­ship). I’m a bit of a clas­si­cal igno­ra­mus (in all senses), so I for­get what I do and don’t have, or what com­poser I like etc. I’m one of these dread­ful peo­ple who tends to asso­ciate the ‘bet­ter’ clas­si­cal pieces with adverts or mov­ing images, so asso­ci­a­tions and mem­o­ries tend to blend into one another, regardless.

I guess this sim­ply rein­forces the idea that lis­ten­ing to clas­si­cal music is, tra­di­tion­ally, a form of penance, or devotion.

Which leads me to Harry Christo­phers & The Six­teen. I’d for­got­ten how much I like choral music. It can be both deeply sooth­ing and yet uplift­ing at the same time. And it has obvi­ous appeal for any­one who has an inter­est in monks and monas­tic life (more on this in the blog, soon). Choral music is aural tea, basically.

Some­where in the Ikon col­lec­tion is a song that repeats the refrain ‘Joy’ sev­eral times — with each part of the choir singing it at a slightly dif­fer­ent cadence (sorry, I for­get the tech­ni­cal term for this, but it’s effect is like a wave of ‘Joy’ with dif­fer­ent fre­quen­cies — peaks and troughs of sound that rip­ple around the room). It gives me goose­bumps. An amaz­ing surge of endor­phines rush around my body and I have the over­whelm­ing urge to join in (but for the sake of my neigh­bours, I don’t).

It makes me think of cliff tops, and druids, and darkly lit cathe­drals and the sea and the birds swirling and viking war­rior par­ties return­ing from a raid­ing voy­age, and…so many other things, all wrapped up in a few pre­cious sec­onds. It’s just mag­i­cal. For those few moments, time stands still in my head and I am lost in a mael­strom of images and feel­ings.  I can see, touch… smell things that aren’t there — like an intense nar­cotic expe­ri­ence.  It’s a beau­ti­ful piece of music.

And you know what? I’ve lis­tened to the col­lec­tion umpteen times since, and I can’t find that refrain again. It’s an audi­tory hal­lu­ci­na­tion. Has that ever hap­pened to you? There’s some­thing pecu­liar about music — this doesn’t hap­pen in the other senses (I think, am I wrong?).

Of course, in writ­ing this post, I’ve had to check again, and I have finally found the seg­ment in ques­tion — it’s two min­utes into ‘A Child’s Prayer’ — and is nowhere near as impres­sive as my mem­ory of it. Funny that, isn’t it? I almost wish I’d not found it, now.

Becayse, it’s there in my head, clear as a bell. ‘Joy’. Per­haps someone’s try­ing to tell me something.

Join in, every­body — ‘joy!’.